Monday, October 1, 2012

One Is The Lonliest Number

 So I'm not really sure where to begin or if I even should. I don't want this to turn into a negative thing as my trust in Heavenly Father's plan for my life assures me that it is not. Jared and I have been trying to have a little one for the last year now with no such luck. I have been on clomid for going on 7 months each month hoping for two little lines, each month ending in face frowning disappointment. Sometimes I get really frustrated when time after time all that comes from that tiny expensive strip is one lonely little line but all and all I have kept my head held high. Today as I saw that oh so familiar lame spice line I felt my heart sink a little , but was quickly reminded of  my sweet husband and his sweet words. Jared told me just yesterday that we need to ALWAYS keep our glasses half full, think of our blessings rather than our misfortunes. I thought about that as I walked out of the bathroom and sat on the couch next to him. I told him about the lame spice line and asked him to share with me one positive thing about not being pregnant. He smiled and told me not just one but two things...haha All of which were true, all of which made me feel better! I wanted to share this little insight into our lives with you, my friends and family not for pity but for the shear example of our Heavenly Father's love for each of us. It really does amaze me how well he knows each and every one of us. I have no doubt that Jared and I will be blessed to form a child and bring it into this world when the time is right. I have faith in that. For now though I am going to work on filling my glass...COMPLETELY. I am going to better myself in all aspects of my life(as a disciple, wife, daughter, sister, teacher and friend). I am so grateful to be a member of The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints. I really can't ask for much more, as I have everything that I need and more. I am truly the Luckiest girl alive!!
P.s I am first counselor in the Young Women's....HOORAY!